Taking my Breath Away

As April draws near, I'm finding it harder to catch my breath. 

Little things that I never would have imagined take me back like it was yesterday.  I know it's not just me, we are both having these moments.  The lack of control that we had over everything, is so frightening.  The uncertainty of life is making our emotions more raw right now. 

How can we feel blessed and a heavy burden at the same time?  I just don't know.  I do know however, that my God is carrying me through this rain.  Even though I feel weak from time to time, He gently reminds me that I can find peace. 

I know this is temporary, that we won't feel the same tomorrow as we do today.  I am in awe of how different the emotions can be, and when they arise. 

We are still learning to breath again.  It takes time, and it takes effort, but we're determined, none the less. 

As I write this, I feel 2 little lives moving inside me, reminding me of that hope I hold onto with everything in me.  I'm thankful for these little reminders that life is precious...each and every one. 

They take my breath away.