Saying goodbye

For the first time in my life since loosing my Grandmother in September, the reality of how short life truly is reared it's ugly head.  I've never had to say goodbye to any of my grandparents until she passed away last year.  It was heartbreaking to have not been able to say goodbye.  Once again this morning I am faced with the same reality.  My grandpa on my mothers side passed away early this morning.  The sadness I feel today is in the harsh truth that when I go visit again, neither one will be there.  I guess we take for granted that they will be, that no matter how often we get the chance or don't get the chance to talk that there is always tomorrow. 

In life it would be nice to have a rewind button, like we do on the dvr.  We could pause life and have a re-do.  Make sure they knew we loved them, and were thinking of them, even though we are far away and don't get home much to check in on them.  This is just the beginning of the loss, as they are all getting older and this is just another stage of life that we all go through.  My children have had the privilege of knowing all of their great grandparents, but one on J's side, who passed when we found out we were expecting our first 15 years ago.  I am sad to say this will not be so for this little one that I am carrying. 

The good news?  While we are experiencing the loss of my grandparents, my children are still able to pick up the phone or offer a hug to All of their grandma's and grandpa's, and a few of their great's.

For that I am so thankful.