It's November

It' been a long year, and yet, it has sped by like the speed of light.  How can the two coexist, long and fast?

I wish I could say that this year was perfect and wonderful, and while there have been some pretty perfect and wonderful moments this year, there have also been some very ugly moments, times of turmoil, and hurt. 

There is still much healing needed and longed for, among our family.  It seems like it really hit us head on, thus, the ugly.  We are just human, imperfect people, doing whatever we can to keep going and find a light to focus on as we press on.

My life has never been so up and down as I feel it has been these past 4 years.  I am weary, yet there is a determination deep within my soul that keeps me moving forward and fighting with all that is in me, for my family.

In the mean time, an attempt to find some semblance of what my life once was, I will put my thoughts in writing.  I've found much healing comes from putting my thoughts, joys and hurts to paper (or blog in this case) and gives me a chance to reflect and see where we've come from and are going.  It is my prayer, that one day, my children will look back on this blog and be able to see more clearly my heart and my love for them and our family, but not just that...that they would see my desire to honor my Savior in all I do and say, and my heart for those hurting around me. 

I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

~ Philippians 3:14 NLT