John Carter

When I heard the latest Disney movie was going to be named, John Carter, I felt like I was having an out of body experience.

John Carter, of all names.

We are still grieving him.  There are days that we have a desperate feeling of despair.  Then there are other days we feel ready to face another day.  Still, though, our hearts are broken for the loss we have endured.   It will remain engrained in every fiber of our being as a day and time we wish we could go back, to change the sequence of events that took place that dreadful week.  It has changed us, some days not for the better, thankfully not every day though.

We walk through life now, different, and sometimes unrecognizable versions of who we use to be, very much longing for the days where there were only tiny little bumps in the road, instead of these Ginormous pot holes that have taken chunks out of the perfectly happy family we all had envisioned.


Every day, month and year holds different feelings about what we've been through.  

A little boy named John Carter...A little boy who showed us how to love, hope, and keep living when things didn't follow the plan we had made.  A little boy who holds a special piece of each of our hearts, and is so dearly missed. 


The hardest thing to grasp sometimes in loss, is that we really don't have the control over life that we thought we had.  After enduring these losses of the last two years, I look around and see very few families who aren't going through very tough times.

When did life become this way?

When did the norm become families hurting and having horrific things happen to them? 

So much pain. 

Recently, a bloggie friend of mine, endured the loss of her father this past week, after he was diagnosed with cancer just before Christmas.  It happened so quickly.  All this after losing her son to Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome less than 2 years ago.    Like us, she has had the privilege of welcoming a new baby to the family after the heartache of losing a son.  Like us, she has been through more than anyone could possibly imagine.
My heart is heavy for her.

I hear stories everyday of people hurting and not knowing how to get through it.  Let me tell you, I don't have the answers, because I am learning as I wade through the deep murky waters myself.  One thing I do know, is faith and hope get me through...and the prayers of you all as you walk this journey with us.

Those prayers carry us when we are at our weakest.  So, with that said, please pray for my dear friend as they grieve a father and a tiny son gone too soon.  And the next time you see a commercial for the latest Disney movie John Carter...please say a little prayer for us.

I pray that our prayers will leave a mark on the families around us, and lift us up out of the pits we so frequently fall in.

That is my hope. 

John Carter, the day he was born.