Unspeakable Joy

You've all seen our pain from this last year, and our triumphs.  The hard times have been numerous, and heavy, but in the midst of it all, we have had glimpses of hope and warm sun shining on us. 

Today, I find it in the joy of feeling my precious daughter wiggling around inside of me.  In the hugs and closeness of my older children, and in my husband as he gently touches my face to let me know it's going to be okay. 

While I don't know how to mourn my little sweetheart, and the significance of this week from the loss of my precious son last year, I can still feel Joy and the smile it brings during this time. 

I don't know how to explain how to find this unspeakable joy, it's just there waiting on us to choose it, I suppose.  It's in our hope, that we hold onto so desperately, and one day all of this heartache will be wiped away.  No more pain, no more tears. 

Choosing joy today, once again.  Wiggle, wiggle my little one, we love you.