Sometimes there are No Words

Really, sometimes there just are not any words to describe how we are feeling, or what we are going through.  I struggle to find a way to fathom what has happened this past year, and the news we have been given today. 

After much research from the time of my last appointment, I felt it was important to get a second opinion...really we wanted to know what to expect more than anything.  Unfortunately, the news was harder than we knew it may be. 

We lost our sweet little baby A.  She is in Heaven now, no longer suffering.  Leaving us to grieve her, and still be hopeful for her sister that seems to be doing so well.  Baby B is now the baby we pray for, the one that still has weeks of growing to do.  Thankfully we have this focus to keep our hearts full of hope in the midst of this devastating news.  She is beautiful, and growing just as she should be, hopefully unaware of what has happened to her sweet sister. 

This is a reminder of how little control we have of life.  So, this week already being terribly hard for us, we face yet another mountain that we must climb together.  Determined to do this to the best of our ability...

Remaining strong, even though today, I don't want to. I won't ever give up, it's not a part of who I am.  Just feeling a little beat down this week.

Please continue to pray for my family.  It's just another hiccup, that we will come out on the other side of.  God will be our strength.